Here is a link showing why one woman chose homebirth:
http://www.birthlove.com/free/rape_complimentary.html

I'm pretty well settled in here and now I just need to take the time to get some schooling done while I'm out here. I should be studying my Spanish. My only option is to do it while the kids are napping or else they will ask me to play with them or feed them or they will gather around me and make noise so that I can't concentrate.

I am seriously considering not eating meat for the most part.Not because I think we should be nice to the animals or because its wrong or evil to eat it. HA. Because:
1. Meat in America these days is disgustingly unhealthy( stays inside you and rots, makes your poo stink, takes forever to digest, has parasites) and organic meat is expensive. You don't need meat so why not save money and eat other stuff. ( This is cool for me because I don't crave meat for the most part)
2. While tens of millions of people die annually from starvation-related causes and close to a billion suffer from malnutrition, 37 percent of the world’s harvested grain is fed to animals being raised for slaughter; in the United States, the figure is 66 percent.
ANyways,I 'm not sure about it. I guess I might eat it if someone offers it, or I decide I want it for some reason. I don't think I'd ever be a strict vegetarian. I eat donuts that are unhealthy... And I would never judge anyone for eating meat or not eating meat. Just like I won't judge a christian for eating pork and I expect a christian not to judge me for not eating pork. God has a different plan for everyone and people need to get over the fact that not everyone is going to live life the same way you do.
Alrighty then, Blessings to all! Peace be unto you

The Denver area is pretty cool. I especially like Boulder.There are so many interesting people here. MY brother and his fam are vegetarians so I am too for the month. They are hoping to be completely vegan by the end of the year. Shannon ( my brothers wife) has raised up her kids pretty interestingly. With cloth diapers, truthful talk, and healthy food. They eat anything! They love vegetables! Who heard of kids that love vegetables?!?! Fruit is their desert.
The sunsets are especially beautiful because there are mountains in the background to add to it. sigh...
I am so tired of hearing " Aunt Helena" though. I am the newest thing and the kids are infatuated. Mainly Skylar, the eldest 6 year old daughter.She is my shadow and I like my space so I've been pretty annoyed. She even follows me into the bathroom. Then there is Elisha who is three and SO CUTE and Jacob who is 2 and is the CUTEST. He has big brown eyes and a furried brow and when his hair is ruffled he looks like a mini genius.
Shannon has been a lot of fun to be around too. I have learned so much from her. Especially about pregnancy, homebirth,and womens bodies in general. I've also discovered some really easy ways to prepare some really health food. I really enjoy helping with the chores because then she can relax because she is so tired in the mornings especially. Anytime she gets to walking a lot she starts having contractions.
One of the neatest things I've done so far is hear the babys heart and feel the baby kicking. She is so fisty! Shannons belly moves all over. Its so fascinating to think of a human being growing insideof another human being! I admire Shannon for deciding to do an unassisted homebirth. She has researched it well and realized that many doctors make it worse than it has to be and some don't even care. Birth is such a natural process just like eating and breathing and thats how she wants it to be. She wants the comfort of her home, not the sterile enviroment of a hospital. The warmth of a family, not the coldness of nurse who thinks birth is no big deal because she sees it everyday. The health of a natural birth, not the drugs the hospitals usually persuade you to take that cause damage to you and the babe. One woman wrote something like an artical on this subject called Rape of the twentieth century. I don't know the linkbut maybe I can get it sometime. It is excellant.
ANyways......I don't know who would read all that. But this is my update. Havent had much time to get on. Blessings to everyone! Praise Yah for all the interesting aspects of life that we get to learn about and formulate our opinions on and discover about ourselves as a result.

Well, I'm heading out for Colorado today. I'm excited to hear my nephews laugh and my nieces high pitched " LENA!". And to see my big bellied Shannon.

www.xanga.com/seekingbinah

Is where I have been at. Its funny that Melanie and I switched at the same time but to opposite sites...

I feel guilty for currently having a simple and pleasant life when there is so much going on elsewhere. SO many people going through so much trouble. A lot of it has to do with losing homes... I guess the only way I could feel better is if I was helping somehow... But how? hmm.

Blessings to All

sigh

I haven't posted. There wasn't anything important compared to all the stuff going on in Israel. Which has done a good job at getting to me and my mood. I've been doing Xanga too because I made friends in Oklahoma that have a little thing going on there.

Yesterday I discovered BIBLE POETRY. I was writing down in my little book all of the things that I thought sounded really pretty or poetic and thought that maybe I could put them together somehow : Each line and word has to be from the bible. You have to start a new line if its not together in the bible. These are my first three:

1.
Deceit
Says
Stolen waters are sweet
That
They
Are
Smoother than oil
But
Sin
Is
Not
More than honey to my mouth
Its
Wrath
Is
Like the roaring of a lion


2.
The face of the deep
Is
Risen in the darkness
The harvest of the earth is ripe
But
My heart is pierced within me
Wrongness burns as the fire
I
See
A stone of stumbling and a rock that makes for falling
They
Think
Deceit might be sweet
But
They
Will
Be
Diminished and brought Low
Praise Yah!


3.
A
Gathered
Flower of the Field
Is
Hidden love
So
Rain for the earth
Nourishes
Love

I love discovering new ways to spend my free time...

Now

I just finished up with my childcare job. Now I am studying Spanish and cleaning up the house some. September I will be heading for Colorado to visit and help out with my brother and his pregnant wife who is having extrememly early contractions. Until succot in North Carolina. I feel bad. I am leaving my cat and her chores with my family for a goodwhile...

I wonder what I will do after succot? I need a plan or a goal or something.

Contradiction

I am constantly and unhappily aware of the contradictions life holds. It's inthe things I see, the people I know, the words I hear, the actions I make. I don't know why I can't accept this concept that I consider to be an inadequant aspect of life. Many other people do. I can't handle someone healing me and hurting me at once. It totally screws up my sense of surroundings. I am making things harder and more confusing by trying to understand too much. I want to see the balance and I want it to make sense. Why does pain and healing coexist? Death and birth? Love and hate? Rejection and acception? Giving and taking? And why do I have such a problem with them coexisting? I need to find the balance of what to focus on in life, also. I pray and hope that Yah guides me and shows me more soon, because life confuses me in the difference in extremities it holds. I confuse my own self in the extremeties that I hold. Does this make sense at all?

Whats a good word?

When I went to Oklahoma my host famILy efore and after Camp Yeshua was The Judah family. I've really grown to love them so I'll have to find some new ways to see them. Saturday Mrs. Judah drove me to the airport noonish but my flight was cancelled. So I was like " cool, a short layover in Dallas" But then my next flight was delayed. So I missed my plane to Savannah and had to stay in Dallas. But becuz I'm a minor I don't get hotel room and all that stuff and I had to go to a prospect room in the airport. HAHA. My suitcase was in a different state. Luckily I had my blanket in my pillow cuz it was cold. The good part was that I met some girls my age who got stuck also. The were traveling around New York for a week. They live in Mexico. I also met a guy from South America. So around one in the morning in the dallas airport I was learning how to salsa and brushing up on my spanish speaking skills in a little kid room. And I got free food! bUt i came late the day before i startede working again so i have gotten any good sleep for a while. Hopefully I'll get some this Sunday. Did I mention that I got free food?

Camp Yeshua ws awesome. I really enjoyed watching everyone. Joel, if you read this, I enjoyed meeting you! I enjoyed the dance, the girls in my cabin, Christopher,Israel,Colin, AMANDA, mi texan amiga, the worship, what teaching we had, painting, the beauty on oklahoma, kia, JESSICA FROSTAD, The Judah family, alyssa and richel(sp?), lisa, rebecca jones!, jacob,tyler,brandon, EVERYONE!

Well its time for me to get ready for shabbat